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random edicts de vendredi

Apologize to the trees!

Frances makes me print
and Xerox® reams of blacked white
tall trees droop and scream

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random edicts de jeudi

Paper, attack!
I went through a period last year where every wall or column I passed near had it in for me. Today, it's attack of the killer paper. 5 paper cuts in three hours and counting.

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Tell me about yourself!
Chrish shared twenty-four useless facts, and then so did a lot of other people. I like these better than the e-mail questionaires, because they eventually get sent to mailing lists with a lot of people who don't actually give a damn about you. Here are my 24 useless facts.

1. I am twenty-one years, six months, and 12 days old. Born on 1979/01/08, which makes me a capricorn.
2. I am a black American, which is to say my ethnic identity is a mystery.
3. I have black hair of the curliest sort, dark brown eyes which I like to pretend are black, and medium brown skin which gets a darker medium brown without my noticing it. It's always too dark for me to buy white women's foundations.
4. I live in Baltimore with my unnamed computer.
5. I drink cream sodas of many descriptions, cold Honest Tea, hot teas, a nice, dry red wine, and hot or cold chocolate. And enough water to drown a fish.
6. I am a temp, which means their problems are never mine, and if I'm working more than 75% of the time, I'll look for a new assignment.
7. I have a bus pass and feet.
8. I know HyperText Markup Language, but I am fully cognizant of the fact that it is not a programming language. To talk to other people, I use English, French, Spanish and Russian, in that order.
9. I own one O'Reilly, which is one more than I can be expected to own, but I thought Laura Lemay's book was more helpful. The impressive thing is how many Mercedes Lackey novels I own.
10. I have an innie. Outies are weird.
11. I have a pair of sandals and a Rugged Outback ankle boot which I rebuy from Payless periodically.
12. I have a scar behind my left ear. It's from surgery to remove a tumor from when I was too young to understand how scary that was. (I didn't have cancer, thank goodness!) And I have a couple of black spots on my tongue from looking a wood stove when I was old enough to know better.
13. The possibly exists that you are right, but that's more of a hypothetical than a probability, y'know?
14. I wear brightly colored Hanes briefs and an uncomfortable black bra, but only when I'm working.
15. I scammed an executive planner from my last "real" job, and about every four months I haul it out and try using it.
16. Deapleap? Is that, like, a frog or something?
17. I occasionally have popcorn by myself at movies, but otherwise I'd really prefer to share your bag.
18. Avery Brooks is unspeakably sexy, but Jeri Ryan is built like a brickhouse and wears a catsuit to work. Yum!
19. I always want it to be darker when I go to sleep, but brighter when I'm trying to read.
20. I admire the music of Ani Difranco; her guitar work makes me happy and her lyrics are a delight.
21. On occasion, I will have coffee in my milk.
22. I believe that there are stupid people but am ambivalent about questions.
23. I haven't had a hair cut since 1997 and that was from a French cosmetology student who didn't know what she was doing. I do my hair in twists. Curly hair stays where you put it.
24. Are people finally getting together? Together to do what? Oh my god, it's a conspiracy! (The GIND can be Scully and I can be Mulder.)

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Think it through!
So, there's this point in the movie the X-Men where Cyclops challenges Wolverine to prove his identity (Mystique is hanging around) and Wolverine says, "You're a dick."

Now, this is good as far as it goes, because it is a sentiment which Wolverine clearly holds and it's something you would have to have been hanging around the School for the Gifted to know about. And as far as Cyclops knows, Mystique has never been to Professor X's mansion.

However, the viewers know full well that Mystique has been to the School and that she's learned something of how its inhabitants feel about one another. Shouldn't we be more suspicious that this isn't Wolverine? (Although, we did just see him spike her, so maybe it's okay.)

Something that made me go "hmmm" after seeing the exchange in Em Brunson's sig a few times.

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random edicts de mercredi

Make a change!
I finally moved my blog from Pitas to blogger.

In the course of the move, I lost all of my original time stamps. Anything dated on the 18th of July, 2000 or before has a false timestamp from blogger. The real one is included in the text.

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random edicts de mardi

Keep it clean!
My aunt came up this weekend, and we went to White Marsh and bought me a vacuum cleaner and a sturdy chair. (Also, a magazine holder, but that was only because we were in IKEA, which bears a large resemblance to a toy store for adults. "Look, Mommy, I could get a 10 piece Swedish meatball platter for only $3.99!")

However, I've been in desperate need of a sturdy chair since about two days after I moved into my apartment, and a vacuum cleaner since a week after I moved into my apartment.

Most of my chairs are camping chairs, which is something I really like, but I do want one chair at which I can use my computer. My current chair was brutally attacked by my brother in his misguided youth and has no internal integrity.

The chair I bought to replace it was a folding chair and actually came assembled, but the vacuum cleaner I put together myself! I am very pleased with assembling it all alone. I am often thoroughly convinced that I am mechanically ungifted and every little victory helps with myself image.

Also, because I had just assembled a vacuum cleaner and even vacuumed about a square foot (it was 10 at night, I didn't think the neighbors would appreciate my doing the whole floor), it occurred to me that my sink and bath tub had not been that grimy sort of grey color when I moved in, and that I was in possession of chemical cleansers and a sponge. They were indeed sufficient to return my bathroom to a reasonable facsimile of whiteness, although I doubt that it could ever be accused of sparkling.

It's kind of weird to realize that bathrooms and kitchens and and carpets and such are not self-cleaning.

Monday, July 17, 2000, 03:20 p.m.

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Roll your eyes!
Toni's being silly. She keeps apologizing for having written her wonderful story.

I kind of wish she had waited to post it, warned me she had something ready to go and given me a chance to finish what I was working on first. But she was certainly under no obligation to do so.

I definitely wish she'd stop apologizing.

For those of you who might be wondering, I got the test results back. Negative, like I thought.

Thursday, July 13, 2000, 09:06 p.m.

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Compare yourself to Toni ...
and come up short.

I beat Toni out in weblog bullshit. This site is 540%.

But she's depressed me about my story writing abilities with the publication of Dark Brothers. A conversation we had (and maybe a fragment I sent, I don't know if she read it first or not) set her off, and she wrote something that just blew me out of the water.

Her story is embarrasingly better than mine, I don't know that I'll bother to finish it.

Wednesday, July 12, 2000, 02:12 p.m.

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Listen to the ones you love!
So, I wrote an entry about the GIND recently. And the GIND read it, as I knew she would, and she sent me an e-mail about it, as I expected she would.

The e-mail did not immediately make me feel better.

I didn't think it would, but just to clarify for the viewing audience.

So, I tried talking to some people about how miserable I was making myself over her.

They seemed to think that either I was deluding myself about being in lust with my straight friend or that she was a heartless woman toying with my affections.

Neither of the two suppositions above is true.

I try to ask people for advice about the GIND, and I end up spending more time explaining about our relationship than getting advice.

The GIND is not doing bad things to me. She hasn't, as far as I know, lied to me. I believe her when she says she loves me, and she acts as if she does. And every time I get into one of these panic attacks about our relationship, she's willing to talk it out, and we really do talk it out and work things through.

It's just that our Non-Dating relationship at this moment doesn't seem to fit into traditional structures. We're more than friends, but I'm not sure either of us wants to be lovers.

Although, people did present me with the obvious advice, which I needed to hear. Figure out what I want and talk with the GIND. Basic poly relationship advice. Basic any kind of relationship advice, but I was having trouble thinking.

Still, I did talk to her, and I do feel better. I'm still not sure what I want. Hell, I'm not sure what she wants. (But I deliberately didn't ask if she was intereted in me in a sexualoving, romantic sense.)

The thing which has me so messed up now is that I've gone around for the past couple of years thinking that there was no way she could be interested in me sexually, and so I ruthlessly squashed whatever sexual desires I might have. But now we're both in places in our lives where we could deal with sexual desire in our relationship, even if only one of us felt it, and I honestly don't know how I really feel.

Also, she plays with my ears. And she lets me snap her bra on occasion.

Sometimes, when I play with my ears, I get turned on. Whenever anyone else plays gently with my ears, I definitely get turned on.

I don't know if she ever knew that, but it's true. So, she plays with my ears for about seven seconds, and then I make her stop.

And I love to snap bra straps. It's not a sexual kink, it's my inner eight year-old boy at work. And occasion I ask if I can, and she'll say yes. It's marvelous.

So, at the point I'm at now, I'm feeling tremendously calmer and content with the fact that we love each other.

But I don't know if my feelings for her are sexual in nature, and I'm trying to sort that out in my head (or maybe more pertinently, my heart), without regard to her feelings. I'd want to figure out what her feelings were before I figured out what to do with my feelings, but I should know what my feelings are first, shouldn't I?

This sort of soul-searching is weird and it's different and it's the sort of thing that makes me wish I knew more about meditating. Isn't this the sort of thing one meditates upon?

Sunday, July 9, 2000, 05:57 p.m.

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Look at her!
Toni updated her blog and did a big redesign.

I really like this one. It's very readable and it's kinda pretty without going overboard.

I'm fucking jealous. I want to do a redesign. Moving my blog to blogger is part of that plan. I also need to go through my stories and HTMLize them. (They're almost universally text files at the moment.)

I'm not really big on redesign. (Hell, I'm not all that thrilled by first designs. The web is still largely a texty medium and I'd rather sites focused on good words, but that's just me, the girl who can't read comic books.) But what I've got now is a lightly modified pitas default, and I want something that looks different, looks more me.

I am not fucking pastel!

pssst! Toni. What happened to my cat graphics?

Sunday, July 9, 2000, 11:51 a.m.

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Betray your kind!
I'm working to move this blog to blogger. I've got the old posts archived up until the last archive, and of course the current page.

I like the way blogger works. It's not quite as simple as pitas, but it is a little more sophisticated. The thing I like best about it is the permalink feature.

Friday, July 7, 2000, 04:51 p.m.

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Listen to your grandma's music!
So, I'm listening to this oldies station as I work. The music is an eclectic collection that probably wouldn't have been played together when it was first on the air, and, amazingly, there are almost no bad songs. This is not to say that there are no songs that I dislike, but I don't dislike them because they're bad. They're in a style I dislike or about a subject I find disagreeable, but they're not bad songs as such.

It occurs to me that the reason for this is that time has served to cull all of the bad songs. People remember the good old days of music, art, or books as good in part because we stop reading all of the drek in which the good is mixed up.

I realize this is not an original thought, but I just had it, so I thought I'd share.

Friday, July 7, 2000, 02:42 p.m.

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Learn where I've been!
The reason I haven't made any entries in about a week is because I went to Boston to see the GIND for the Fourth of July. I left Friday night and got back Wednesday night, and we had an orgy.

Of Farscape watching, sillies! We're not dating! (Also, we saw most of The Invisible Man to date, a random Voyager episode and three excellent movies: Chicken Run, Sliding Doors, and Cookie's Fortune.)

We also talked, quite a bit. The GIND disapproves of developments in my latest Farscape story. She accuses it of not having anything happen. (Well, it is perhaps a bit strong to say she disapproves. She likes what's there, but she wants it to show some forward movement.) And I agree with her, to a point. But the stories really are meant to be part of an (as yet unfinished) whole, the four stories and the four episodes together. And so the parts don't have to individually do so much, at least I don't think they do. Maybe this would be more evident if I had at least a rough plotting of story three. sigh

I didn't, of course, attempt to explain this to her. Mostly because I hadn't quite articulated my feelings so clearly internally. Also, because I have a tendency to argue things for the sake of argument, and I am trying to cure myself of it.

Besides fanly things, she and I ended up talking about us. We've come to the conclusion that if we were dating, we would kiss each other and have unhappiness about monogamy. She's not into casual sex, so we wouldn't be having sex with each other. And we've already exchanged, "I love you," (and continue to do so) so that wouldn't be anything new. It was a rather joking conclusion but still, it made me uneasy because...

The Topless Tuner has a pet boy!

I find it fairly amazing that the TT has a romantic relation, but unless you know her personally, you do not find this astonishing in the least. And truthfully, I doubt that the TT has really made a 'pet' of him. But they are reported to be exchanging love letters.

Anyway, if the Tuner can establish a romantic liaison, then someone might come along and sweep the GIND off her feet, quite by accident. (If you have watched Sliding Doors, you understand my anxiety about accidental romance; she doesn't drive, she takes the T everywhere.)

I did manage to express my anxiety to the GIND. (Have just reread The Ethical Slut and am making an effort with that honesty thing.) But I don't think I was 100% clear about just what I'm afraid of. She tried to reassure me by emphasizing that any boy that either I or the Tuner disapproved of/disliked would be strongly reconsidered as relationship material. (Although, honestly, I liked her psycho ex-boyfriend before he started making her unhappy, so I'm not sure how much good I can do in this vetting process.)

But I'm not really afraid of the (for argument's sake, boy, although she insists she's not hung up on gender) boy I dislike. I'll be on guard against the boy who puts my hackles up and makes me want to spit, and I'll be unsurprised when he does things I don't like.

It's the boy I do like that worries me. Because I can envision a scenario where she's picked out a nice Jewish boy that her parents like and the TT likes and I like and he genuinely likes me, but...

He does not like the way the GIND and I behave with each other, especially once he finds out I'm a lesbian. And, being the sort of boy that all of us like, he doesn't say anything, except to perhaps mention once he's slighly uncomfortable with all of the girl/girl affection. But once the GIND told him he just had to deal (and besides I live 10 hours away by bus so it's not like he has to deal often) he wouldn't mention it again.

Verbally. But his body language would be subtly disapproving and he would just sort of insert himself between us and give me funny looks when I rubbed the GIND's feet. But the GIND and I wouldn't consciously notice because this guy would genuinely like me except when I was touching his girl too much. Subconsciously, we would just tone things down while he was around. And then even when he wasn't around. And eventually, we'd stop Not Dating and just be two friends who've never been romantically involved.

That's what I'm really afraid of.

But now that I've written it all out like that, it seems rather stupid. Not impossible to happen, but impossible to guard against and thorougly unnecessary to worry about when the GIND is bemoaning a lack of companionship beside the Tuner's.

This mental energy could have been devoted to writing the third story in my Farscape quartet.

OH MY GOD I AM SUCH A BIG LIAR!

I am writing this blog as the coward's way out to tell the GIND things I don't know how to tell her directly.

I'm not chickenshit (I am attempting to communicate, in however roundabout a way) but I am much less than brave.

Part of the problem is that we have this vibe going where I exist to be her audience. (Not to say that the GIND and I don't have conversation, we've got plenty.) But she is perhaps the only person in the world who makes me feel inarticulate in English. (Any French six year old could make me feel inarticulate in French, because the subjunctive is not my friend, and there are many people who make me laugh at my dancing, but only she does the same thing in English.)

(for those of you who are wondering, no, I do not maintain this blog merely as a way of communicating with Toni and the GIND. for the GIND, the last paragraph isn't one I wrote to you, as opposed to the little mental experiment about a boypet from the future. I considered deleting it so you wouldn't feel attacked, but I thouight that would be ... dishonest.)

Thursday, July 6, 2000, 10:10 p.m.

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Watch this show!
I had resisted watching West Wing. I had this weird loyalty to Sports Night thing going on. Also, it came on at the same time as Voyager, which I watch regularly.

But, Gail Pennington recommended it as one of the shows you should catch up with during the summer if you didn't watch it in fall.

So I watched tonight's ep and I was hooked with the teaser. It's an extremely packed show and the pace is unrelenting, but it's good and it has moments of humor, too.

I recommend it.

Wednesday, June 28, 2000, 10:08 p.m.

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Kill Your Weblog!
Or not. I actually feel that this movement on the part of some bloggers to convince others to stop blogging is misguided. It's not as if bad blogs make good blogs exist any less. And frankly, most of the badly designed weblogs I've seen are much less offensively designed than the worst of the webpages.

For those who are interested, I ran the test once and got a 49%, and then, in going back and trying to give 'bad' answers, I noticed I missed question. So, when I redid it the second time (with my real answers) I got a 54%. Um, no, my day was neither made nor broken.

Wednesday, June 28, 2000, 09:59 p.m.

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Do it yourself!
There's something infinitely wrong with the MTA Transit Phone help people. They don't exist. I was on hold for almost twenty minutes tonight, trying to get some route information, before I gave up and went to pee.

But, using their website, I was able to figure out how to get to the bus route I needed (I knew the bus route that was closest to the place I was going, I just wasn't sure what the best place to transfer to that bus was).

But the Washington Metro has a much cooler thing for finding your way, they call it the Ride Guide. You put in the address of your departure point and destination, and the time you need to travel (either when you're leaving or when you have to arrive) and it gives you up to three ways to get where you're going. I wish Baltimore had something like that, because if you don't know the place you are going to (as is often the case with a temp) then you have to call the MTA and wait on hold for insane numbers of hours.

Wednesday, June 28, 2000, 08:31 p.m.

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Find out for sure!, Pt II
This is a much happier entry. Just so you know going in.

About a week ago I bought a used porn novel at Lambda Rising. When I got home, it wasn't in my bag. I figured that I'd left it on the light rail, although I had the brief thought that maybe I'd left it in the store.

I dismissed this as improbable.

I did think about going and asking, because I go to or near Lambda Rising on a very regular basis. I pick up the Washington Blade there, which is a weekly, and I work at the Baltimore Gay Paper, which is in the same building.

But I didn't go.

Today, however, I wanted to see if the editor of the paper was randomly hanging around, even though this is our off week. I had something to talk to him about.

He wasn't.

But one of the clerks at Lambda Rising came out of the store, and he had the book. He said, "You left it!" (Or maybe he said, "You forgot it!") And then I said, "I thought I left it on the train. Thanks." And went on my merry way, quite pleased with the world and in an immensely better mood.

Tuesday, June 27, 2000, 05:38 p.m.

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Find out for sure!
Went for anonymous HIV testing today. Today's National HIV Testing Day, so they were doing it without appointments. Otherwise, I probably wouldn't have gone. I'm really bad about making appointments.

I'm a trifle disturbed that I feel the need to go ahead and get tested for HIV. I probably don't have it. I've had unsafe sex with more than one person, but only one of them was in a risky category. Hmm, maybe two. I don't know what kind of drugs he did before I met him, but I do know he had taken drugs. It was mostly oral, anyway.

I don't get the results until the 12th of July, so I'm just going to be waiting, waiting, waiting until then. I'm a little afraid I'll forget to go. Wouldn't that be awful? The whole point is to know, one way or the other, and forgetting would just completely ruin that.

I don't know what I'll do if I'm positive. Call my mom, then call the GIND, probably, but I need a better plan than that. Oooh, e-mail all of those multiple partners should probably go on that list. I'll probably read the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, because it talks about a book that says Don't Panic.

I am a frood, but I'm just a little...

No, I'm really rather worried.

Tuesday, June 27, 2000, 05:25 p.m.

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Stay up!
The decorating is, alas, coming undone. I put up all of the postcards and posters and things with doubled over pieces of masking tape. I'll have to go to K-Mart and get some actual sticky tack. Damn it.

Monday, June 26, 2000, 01:36 a.m.

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Decorate!
I finally got around to putting up my postcards. I did my junior year in France, and I picked up a lot of postcards, both the kind you pay for and the free advertising kind. So my room senior year, the walls were covered in postcards and posters, and a few bags and sheets from magazines. Whatever I either thought looked cool or meant something to me.

I scavenged most of them when I went home after graduation, and I spent about 45 minutes tonight putting up the grand majority of them. They're vaguely color-coded, with the exception of the XF stuff, which is all on the wall by the TV.

It makes me happy, because my apartment finally looks like my apartment, instead of my apartment.

Friday, June 23, 2000, 12:25 a.m.

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Agree with her!
I do.

Friday, June 23, 2000, 12:02 a.m.

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Go forth and be reborn!
This is a glam name generator. I think it's the most fun name generator I've come across so far. A select few:

• my real name: Poxy Sugarplanet
• WitchQueen: Nova Tinselsex
• Witch Queen: Vodka Metalpants
• The GIND's real name: Icy Silvertrash
• Girl I'm Not Dating: Glossy Plasticspike
• Blair Jacob Sandburg: Maribou Purplespike
• James Joseph Ellison: Ginchy Purplepants (they match!)
• Fox William Mulder: Opulence Blowplanet
• Walter Sergei Skinner: Vodka Sugarplanet (they match!)
• Alexander Krycek: Poxy Lushtwist
• Darth Maul: Hologram Silverdangle
• Obi-Wan Kenobi: London Lushponce
• John Crichton: Ginchy Tinselpants
• Ka D'Argo: Typhoon Fairymullet

What's that you say? I have way too much time on my hands? Naaaaaaaah...

Thursday, June 22, 2000, 08:13 p.m.

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Cue "Dueling Banjos"!
'Twould seem that I upset the fair Toni when I remarked on the slow pace of slashsluts, in this semi-public forum.

Well, I find myself not knowing what to say to her, so I'll say it to you, my blog audience (knowing full well that she's a part of it).

First of all, if she's upset that I called everyone boring ... if the sole interaction is conversation, and nobody frigging says anything, is that not boring?

Second, I'm not saying that slashsluts is a bad idea. I'm saying that something in it isn't working, and I was wondering if it was me or them. I realize that there are periods when noone has anything to say. But by the same token, if an electronic forum goes unused, it dies. And if the last non-WQ post was on the 12th, and today is the 22nd, then Houston, we have a problem.

Third, I know I have a paranoia about talking into this great electronic void and not being heard. So, I wanted to talk myself through my thoughts on slashslut before I talked to anybody else. These days, my most effective thinking things through time comes on the blog. (Also, I get responses from the people who read it, which helps me think about things more.)

And besides, what would I say to them? "Xen, Bri, Toni, talk to me or I'll stop talking to you?" The effective threat potential strikes me as kinda minimal. I'm not sure any of them want to talk, either to me or each other.

Last but not least, in this private message to Toni ... remember what you told me about talking about the GIND? Well, I fucking followed your advice! Ya wanna bitch at me for doing what you told me to?

Thursday, June 22, 2000, 07:27 p.m.

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See the fixed mistake!
Left out a crucial quotation mark in my last entry. If you read it and wondered what that was supposed to say, go there now to find out.

Thursday, June 22, 2000, 07:24 p.m.

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Apologize!
My last couple of entries have been ragging on people for not writing in their blogs, but at the same time, I let Monday and Tuesday go by without a word from me. It's a little hypocritical. And, while I'm still not convinced that hypocrisy is really a bad thing, I do think people should be aware of their own hypocrisy, instead of doing it blindly.

My excuse is that I've been 1) helping with the Baltimore Gay Paper the past few evenings, and 2) been trying to connect with some flesh and blood people in Baltimore.

If it were just a question of having enough adult (as in grown up, not blatantly sexual) discussion with people, my on-line friends would suffice, and I could stay home and update this blog everyday. But there's a certain amount of skin-to-skin contact that every human being needs; shaking hands and typing simply doesn't fulfill my quotient.

Anyway, I do wish the people whose blogs I read would update, but I suppose I understand when life gets at you and you just can't manage it.

Wednesday, June 21, 2000, 05:58 p.m.

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Talk to me!
Have you ever been invited to an exclusive organization, and then found out that all the people were boring and you wondered why you'd gone?

That's kind of how I feel like with slashslut. I tried to start a couple of conversations on 'serious' issues: why is there so little girlslash, what should we do about Creation trying to kill the fan-run convention? When only Toni seemed interested in that, really, I tried offering up a slashy review of a new ep. Still no response, not even from Toni this time.

I don't know if it's the idea that's broken, or if I'm just a boring conversationalist. I like to think I'm interesting, but maybe I'm not. And if this slash discussion isn't going to be any fun, maybe I should just pull out, give someone more ... stimulating a chance to be in the mix.

sigh

Wednesday, June 21, 2000, 05:52 p.m.

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Drink it up!
Honest Tea is the best bottled tea I've ever had because it tastes like tea from tea drinkers instead of tea from Southern iced tea drinkers.

(Tea made in the southern United States, for those of you from other places, is actually liquid sugar with brown food coloring.) <--- Exagerration.

In any case, Honest Tea is made from tea and filtered water and extremely tiny amounts of natural sweeteners, not high fructose corn syrup. And it tastes marvelous.

Before I discovered Honest Tea, I was enamored of Tazo, but Honest Tea is better.

However, my true beverage love is Stewart's Cream Ale. Stewart's is good, although their dessert flavored sodas (Orange-N-Cream, Key Lime and Lemon Meringue) are too sweet for me. But you can read all about it at BevNET, which is marvelous site that reviews products. It can turn you on to the great tasting ones, and the reviews for drinks they don't like are clever. Although you should be warned, they have a much higher sweetness tolerance than should be allowed. Other than that, I think they are dead on!

Sunday, June 18, 2000, 10:09 p.m.

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With the exception of the breast chronicles and web queeries, none of the blogs/journals I usually read has updated in at least a couple of days. (One of them hasn't updated since the end of May.)

Are we all hot and tired from summer? Have we insituted a new "weekends off" policy?

Myself, I'm exhausted. I spent all day tramping around in book related happenings. I would tell you about them, but I'm too tired for that. AAAARGH!

Saturday, June 17, 2000, 11:19 p.m.

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The GIND (Girl I'm Not Dating) and I had an interesting conversation through AIM this evening (my handle is WitchQueenslash, btw). We touched on a lot of things ...

One of which is how I feel about her reading this blog. I mean, I dunno if I can write things about her in it, now that I know she's reading it.

So, this particular entry is kind of a test in itself. Can I talk to myself about her in public, knowing she's part of the audience?

And what I really want to talk about is the fact that she said she's ....

(oooh, i'm running into an ethical dilemma here. she's got a feeling about someone who i know reads this blog. so, if i talk about it, i'm revealing her feelings about someone else to that someone else.)

I'll have to sleep on whether or not this is fair. Anyone have advice?

Thursday, June 15, 2000, 10:36 p.m.

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